Bleeding

I am no immortal
My mortality stares me in the face
Like an oncoming train
So who's to blame
Me for dragging the blade
Down my vein
And hoping
Just hoping
One day it'll rain
And wash away all the pain
Leaving just the suffering

Destroy something beautiful
The fight club of my life
I am Jack's desire for depression
The loneliness makes me feel unique
I am an individual
I am not a unique snowflake
I am like everyone else
Stop lying to myself
But I feel like it helps
When I feel overwhelmed
To submit to this self
This self-harm

Mutilate
Regenerate
Rinse
Wash Repeat
The cutting of meat
So tender its sweet
For that moment when you bleed
It's all I need
Not the sting or the ache
But the reminder that I'm dying on the inside
And no matter how I try I'll always just find
Another pain to comfort me

So take my hand
Let's walk the tracks
And don't look back
And when you hear the whistle
Deafen yourself
Don't listen as it approaches
You might change your mind
And the metal tears down the line
And it hurts only for a second
But don't go too deep
Or people will start to think
There's something wrong with you

Nothing gold can stay
So enjoy it while it lasts
And when it's past
Just remember the good times
Not the bad
Cause it'll only make you mad
But I'm glad
Glad it happened
The start and the end
Because without that
You have no story
And without blood
You can't bleed
And without sorrow
You can't weep
And you can't appreciate
The good times
When there is no bad.